state of mind.

I wake up, it's a bad dream,

No one on my side,

I was fighting

But I just feel too tired

to be fighting,

guess I'm not the fighting kind.

Love.

What would you do
if my heart was torn in two?
More Than Words to show you feel
that your love for me is real...

Be careful....

Be careful what you wish for,

'Cause you just might get it all.

You just might get it all,

And then some you don't want.

Politics

Ahh...Politics. Hmm, i don't think it's a topic that most of us would like to talk about. Especially women. I don't know why some people doesnt bother about it. Come on guys. It's part of our life. You don't want to pay tax for nothing right?LoL.

First of all, what is actually politics? Do you guys even try to find the meaning of the word? Well, from Cambridge Dictionary, it means the study of the ways in which a country is governed. Maybe some of us thinks that 'i would not give a shit about it as long as the government do it in the right way'. Well,my opinion is if there is no one there to highlight their weakness or to point out any of their negligence or weaknesses,as everyone doesn't give a bloody attention on them, how will these government rule by politicians is good enough for us? They will just fool us by giving us the good news in the streamline media stressing the good news but doesn't says anything about the bad one. We just sit back, nodding and agreeing with whatever they give to us without thinking whether it is right or wrong or what might it affect us in future. It's insulting our intelligence. Don't you guys feel that?

Anyway, my point is that we need to be aware with political issue domestically,demographically or internationally as it can affect our current standing in future. As well as that, we pay these servicemen every year through the taxes majorly for the betterment of our society and country wholly. We all know that tax is something that not all of us would love to spend each year. If we have choice not to pay them, we simply wont. So, we should try to make the juice worth the squeeze by pushing them to do the right thing.Like a famous funny quote " Be a man! Do the right thing!"(Russel Peters actually.hahahaha).

You can't just simply ignore the fact if the country is facing with huge financial deficit for consecutive years. It will just affect everyone really-really bad. It affect the inflation rate of the goods in the country, lots of people will lose job, foreign investor will not have faith on the country investment return, people demotivate and frustration will go swept all over the nation, and development of the country will be cut short because of the lack of funding and ability by the government. Aren't that 'nice' enough for us? It is the worst case scenario. It also reminds me of what happened to some South America's country and our neighbour Indonesia during their last economic recession (I'm not exactly sure the when was it for the South America one. It was back in my mind). It will be very hard to overturn things around by that time of situation. It will take years for the country to recover from the economic fall. Im'm not trying to provoke an issue here but just give a perspective for us to think. Like one of the malay saying " Mencegah lebih baik dari mengubati ".

What is important in my perspective is the freedom for the mainstream media to portray real and accurate issues surrounding the country. There should be no political influence behind certain or particular media company which might effect the stand and integrity of the media company. By this way, 'people power' can prevail and none of these servicemen will feel they are above the law. Even Bill Clinton can be brought to court for his infidelity issue during his presidency, why can't our court bring our corrupt or unmoral politicians or government officers for crime that they do commit?

Aside of that, separation of power should be clearly defined. I think there are several issue regarding of these matter are not handled properly. Example are minister that hold two important portfolio in one running term. In accounting, we have learned that to ensure no financial fraud could be done, we need to make separation in each accounting cycle in terms of authorization and implementation. I think it should also be done in the government. Aside of that, i don't think our country is that democratic anymore. I do believe the separation of juridical and executive power should be pull out and separated. Then, justice may prevail.

Other thing is the integrity and honesty of the politician in running the government. Where should it fit the best for current situation? Giving these politician who serve in the federal or state cabinet a huge amount of money or just relying on trust and considerable amount of it. I think it's the hardest point of all. I have this thought for quite a while actually. Back to the period of caliph Ar-Rasyidin, these caliph doesn't been given much money but they serve the people without creating such fuss as they consider it's a responsibility given to them by the people and they did a wonderful job. However, nowadays it is hard for you to serve without getting paid as you need money to survive and feed your own family. Lust also is not exception as all of them are just human and human factors need to be considered greatly. Politicians also is expected to donate considerable amount of money if any disaster happened or any fund-raising activities launched in their respective representative area. These doesn't help politician at all if they only received unconsiderable amount of money. Some other countries such as our neighbour Singapore give quite a huge sum for politician who serve the country to curb cronyism and bribe issue within the government.

As much we doesn't condone such act, it will always be an issue surrounding us forever. There will always be good and evil or two sides in a time. It's like a magnet where it always pushing each other around every time they are close but they are always side by side. However it is, it ends up with us ourselves to react and create the impact. I am only a man that speak his mind.I'll end this with a famous quote by John. F. Kennedy :

Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country.

Surat Cinta@ Love Letter.

I was browsing numerous blog when i bumped with this funny love letter. Check it out.



Surat Cinta Rock Kapak.

Salam,

Amacam awekku? Lu orait ke? Wa harap lu ok-ok je..

Awekku, gua telah membaca surat lu tempohari. Apasal lu buat cenggini kat gua? Selama ni cintan gua terhadap lu bukan main. Lu ingat gua main-main ke? Cintan gua mendalam very deep you know! very deep purple! Lu tak perasan ke?

Apa yang kurangnya gua ni? Cuba lu cakap! Gua ni tak cukup hensem ke? Atau lu sudah ada balak lain? Lu sound gua beb! Mentang-mentang lu keja opis, lu ada skandal dengan mat despatch kat opis lu tu! Mamat poyo tu lu nak? Apa barang?!! Setakat mat despatch, kalau lu nak tau, gua dulupun pernah mintak jadi cikgu tapi tak dapat. Bukan pasal gua takde kelayakan tapi tadika kemas jarang amik cikgu lelaki. Lagipun jiwa gua lebih kepada seni. Tiket konsert gua semua habis jual! Sebab tulah gua jadi tukang jual tiket konsert funfair buat sekian lamanya sampai tauke funfair tu tak offer kat onglain.

Gua memang betul-betul tak puas hati ni! Lu memang bikin gua panas! Sampai hati lu buat macam ni kat gua setelah apa yang gua dah kasik kat lu. Lu ingat gua ni apa?!!

Awekku, lu ingat tak dulu sewaktu lu & gua first time jumpa? Masa tu hujan. Lu takde payung. Lu lari pegi kat bus stop. Lu basah kuyup. Kesian pulak gua tengok lu kesejukan. Gua bukak jeket gua pastu kasik lu pinjam. Baek punya gua usya. Start tulah lu & gua sama-sama sudah feeling-feeling. Gua ingat lagi lagu "antara gadis" masa tu kita layan menjadi lagu tema cinta gua kat lu. Gua selalu nyanyi lagu tu kat talipon public. Lu tak ingat ke? Ke lu dah lupa?!!

Pehal lu buat cenggini?!! Gua dah tangkap cintan maut kat lu wo! Janganlah buat gua macamni! Kalau lu tak suka cara gua lu cakaplah! Janganlah kerana besday lu gua hadiahkan t-shirt metallica, lu buat camni pulak kat gua. Gua tau sapa gua. Gua memang macamni, rocker sejati! Lu pun tau sapa gua. Dulu lu takdepun macam ni. Lu tak kisahpun! Lu layan selamba je. Tapi kenapa sekarang lu berubah? Nampak je gua rocker tapi gua pun beriman jugak, beb! Sembahyang jumaat tak tinggal wo!

Lu pikirlah sindri, beb! Gua dah curahkan segala-galanya kat lu. Gua dah sound mak bapak gua nak meminang lu. Gitar Gibson secondhand gua tu gua dah gadai. Gua buat modal nak kawin dengan lu. Cayalah cakap gua! Gua tak tipu! Betul cakap lu! Gua harap lu pikirlah baik-baik, beb! Gua dah takde awek lain lagi. Lu sorang jelah yang gua cinta. Awek lain gua usya diorg tak layan gua cakap lu! Gua tak tipu! Betul punya cakap lu!

Akhirkata dari gua, kenang gua dalam doa makan malammu. Semoga lu berbahagia, beb!

Yang Benar,
Rockersejati


Surat Cinta Saintifik.

Dalam kesuraman ultra lembayung tika tujuh bulan menumpahkan cahaya dibawah kaki langit khirmizi, tiba-tiba aku terkenangkan eurika nostalgia cinta lama yang kita palitkan berdua. Kehadiranmu bersama molekul-molekul hidrogen menerjang segala kekusutan yang membelit tali perutku. Dan kehadiranmu itu mengajar aku erti rindu gelora dan shahdu.

Kau juga mengajarku erti cinta, singa laut,beruang kutub, penguin, kambing salji, mee rebus, cendol, koridor, kotak pensil, tali kasut dan pasu bunga.Kala itu, kita bagaikan Nobita dan Sizuka.Kau dan aku umpama Kurt Cobain dan Rafeah Buang yang tidak dapat dipisahkan. Malangnya percintaan yang mendapat liputan meluas hingga ke planet Ziku itu telah mengundang perpisahan yang akhirnya telah mengecewakan seluruh penternak lipan di Burma. Kau pergi jua ketika Kuala Lumpur sedang bersiap sedia menjadi tuan rumah Sukan Komanwel 1998.

Sesungguhnya perpisahan itu berpunca daripada penebangan pokok getah secara besar-besaran di Lembah Klang. Pemergianmu menyebabkan aku menghidap penyakit resdung dan hepatitis-Q secara mengejut. Ketiadaanmu memaksa aku memakai topi keledar setiap masa sebagai langkah keselamatan. Aku seperti tidak percaya dengan apa yang telah terjadi. Aku bagaikan tergelincir dari orbit bumi dan terpelanting ke ruang angkasa, apabila daya tarikan graviti terhadapku tiada lagi berfungsi setelahaku tersungkur dalam percintaan yang berlarutan hingga ke rubber-set. Seluruh perjalanan hidupku menjadi gelita bagaikan terperangkap di dalam gua yang gelap dan ditemani stlagit dan stlagmit yang bagai sembilu.

Kondominium cinta yang kita bina dari makgat basikal dan kipas helikopter akhirnya musnah setelah kau berpaling tadah. Ternyata sikapmu mulai berubah bila Malaysia mula melancarkan satelit MEASAT-1 ke ruang angkasa raya. Sejak itu kau sering melarikan diri bila terserempak dengan abang iparku. Akhirnya aku menyedari bahawa diri ini tidak diperlukan lagi.

Sejak kau tiada, aku sering menyendiri berbual-bual dengan pokok betik untuk mengisi masa lapang. Kadang-kadang aku mengikat botol oren pada tiang rumah agar nampak lebih cantik. Saban hari aku termenung di dalam peti sejuk mengenangkan dirimu yang entah kemana menghilang. Aku cuba bermain badminton sambil makan mi hailam untuk melupakanmu, tetapi aku tak berdaya. Lalu aku membakar mesin basuh dan membelasah empat ekor itik serati jiran sebelah sebagai tanda aku tidak bersalah.

Mengapa? Mengapa sayang? Mengapa ini semua bisa terjadi? Mengapa setelah kau curi hatiku, kau rompak cintaku lantas kau bunuh cintaku sehingga kau terbunuh dalam kemalangan cinta yang ngeri. Aku bagaikan terhimpit dan dihimpit oleh guni-guni batu yang kau timpakan di atas belakangku. Derita yang kautimpakan itu adalah bebanan yang terlalu berat untuk ku tanggung bagaikan mendukung 75 ekor biawak dan 386 ekor anak beruk. Dan kini segala harapanku hancur berkecai bagaikan aku terjatuh dari Menara Kuala Lumpur dan dihempap oleh Menara Berkembar Petronas lalu tersangkut di celah landasan LRT dan kemudiannya digilis pula keretapi Komuter hingga aku hancur berkecai. Oh! terlalu berat dugaan yang kutempuhi kini.

Kini segalanya telah pun berakhir. Aku sedar siapa aku. Aku hanya insan biasa yang suka makan mi segera. Aku bukan McGyver, McDonald's, Superman atau Kesatria Baja Hitam. Aku juga bukanlah Ultraman seperti yang kau idam-idamkan. Aku menyedari kekurangan diri dan kekurangan kemudahan awam di tempat sendiri. Tak perlu dikesali lagi kerana nasi telah menjadi capati dan tin sardin yang ku genggam ini telah pun luput tarikhnya. Segalanya sungguh mengharukan dan semua hadiah pemberianmu termasuk enjin kapal selam telah pun aku cincang untuk dibuat makanan lembu.

Walaupun segalanya telah pun berakhir, disini, diatas pokok getah ini aku tetap menunggu kau akan kembali. Selagi ada nafas ini, selagi ada kompleks membeli-belah SOGO, selagi ada kedai kasut selipar di sekitar Argentina, selagi kumpulan Metallica tidak berpecah, aku tetap menunggumu sehinggalah mentari terbelah lapan. Namun aku menyedari bahawa penantianku hanyalah sia-sia belaka. Akhirnya aku mengambil keputusan mektamad untuk menunggu tiang elektrik dihadapan rumahku berbuah. kalau tiang elektrik berbuah nanti, aku poskan buahnya kepadamu. Nak tak?


Tak boleh blah.

GERAM!!!

Pabila anda bertikam lidah dengan seseorang yang anda tahu, kenal atau rapat dan geliga bijak orangnya , anda akan merasakan bahawa betapa sakitnya hati anda jika seseorang yang sedemikian rupa mempunyai EGO yang amatlah besar kerana menyangka dirinya sudah sungguh bijak untuk menilai dan hipotesisnya tidak dangkal dan konkuren. Tambahan pula, jika orangnya itu masih hingusan,mentah dan masih terkongkong dari alam nyata yang penuh dengan dugaan dan pancaroba. Malahan, jika ia melibatkan sesuatu yang memberi kesan yang amat besar pada diri kita, yang membersi signifikasi buruk pada perspektif penting dalam hidup kita, tidakkah kita akan berasa GERAM yang membabi buta dan tak terkira petala langitnya. ARGH!!!

PS: Semangat 'keskemaan' melanda.

Keep Walking...

As we grow older day by day,we become a much more complex creature. Variables pouring to our life adding the story tale of a life and grooming a set of characteristics in each of us. Variables in my context is events that will influenced our life somehow which happened directly to us or others but indirectly influenced us too. It is a matter of wether we can realize and recognize the significant of it throughout our life. There will some junctions in our life when we are caught up with it and eating ourself down, demoralizing our spirit and torturing our soul. The question is, how much you can accept it and take the hit, swallow it and sail through the journey of your life? What medicine will you use to cure the illness? How and can you walk up straight with pride and dignity with bruises all over your face. Think about it.